I have been in a reflecting mood lately about motherhood. I think Mrs. Heidi Swapp brought that on. I am preparing for CKU Albums next week in Provo, Utah. I have been thinking about her album theme, 'She' for a few weeks and it has just stuck with me. I have been so reflective on my thoughts about being a mother...what it requires, what I desire as a mother, what I need to be a good mother and so much more. Last night, I could not go to sleep...I kept thinking about different pages and my thoughts for them.
I've been preparing my photos, changing them to black and white, and trying to search through my millions of photos for ones of me with my kids. I never take photos of me with my kids - I'm always so self-conscious. I don't look the way I want to 'look', so I'm embarrassed to see myself in photos. It has also opened up my eyes that I can't hide behind the camera - my kids need to have those photos of me with them as much as I need them. It's amazing to me, how one single photo can evoke such powerful emotions. I was almost overcome yesterday by tears by this one certain photo - such powerful emotions involved in that photo - at that very moment that photo was taken - and yet the photo doesn't necessarily show and tell the story behind it. I'm more motivated and inspired than ever to scrap the moments behind the photos - not just put a title of 'darling, sweet, etc.' (although I still love to do some of those!).
I'm really looking forward to going to Provo next week - to near my hometown. I'm staying at my parents - that will be nice. And I plan to hook up with some friends while I'm in town too. It's sad, I just got home from a teaching assignment for Making Memories in Cali and here I am, anxious for another break. How bad is that!! Pathetic! My poor hubby - here with the kids again for another weekend! I love him!!
I'm excited to see old friends and meet new friends. I'm excited to just play and learn! I'm excited to shop!! Bring it on!! LOL! I'm excited to create an album that will be timeless - that I'll treasure forever. It is something that I would never do on my own - I'm thankful for Heidi for coming up with the awesome topic of motherhood - it's going to be an awesome weekend of emotions and fun!
I'm getting my photos printed right now - I can't wait to get them on Monday as I'm sure they will spark even more emotions.
Out for today...